Yesterday was a good day. Yeah I’ll admit it. It was actually a GOOD day. I can say that even though I had some pain, but it was definitely more manageable yesterday. I forced myself to go to the beach even though it was sprinkling (later pouring down rain 😂). I was able to walk over 30 minutes and look for shells at high tide. The beach usually makes my day better. I always feel calmer at the beach. I love watching surfers and paddle boarders. Sometimes, I see dolphins in the waves playing and flipping around in the crashing waves. Overall, it’s such an uplifting experience for me to make it to the beach.
Anyway, after that I figured I would go to the store and find some summer tops and was actually successful! I got gas and picked up a redbox movie. When I got home, I ordered my background check and drug screen for my last year of nursing school. I googled current nursing jobs and specifically looked for home health jobs and jobs slightly less physically strenuous than the common 12 hour hospital job. I reminded myself that even if I’m still fighting this pain after graduation, I should be able to find a job that I am physically capable of doing! Then, I watched Netflix and scrolled social media and did my calf stretches throughout the evening. Chris finally came home and we had some couple time. It was just a good day.
Lately, my days have been very very dark. I find myself feeling extremely isolated and alone. I feel like life isn’t liveable and I can’t possibly enjoy it, BUT, and that’s a big but, yesterday was good. Yesterday gives me hope that I’ll have more yesterdays and if I can have more yesterdays, then I can fight through the bad days. ❤️